A family of my own! November 23, 2008

Okay so first if I sent you a message and said to read my newest post well it’s the one below! lol I just remembered something that happened last night and I just had to share it. Last night Sarah and I went to see a movie and after words we decided to go and say good-bye to some of my friends in My Fair Lady. So we were waiting and when the show ended this cute little girl who I was told by her was 8 came and talked to me. I loved her company. She had the cutest little shoes. I had the most enjoyable converstaion with her. This really made me think how I can not wait to have children of my own. With the holidays approaching fastly makes me excited however I wish I had my own husband and kids to spoil. My prayer is for my future family. I can not wait to have fun with my kids. I know I will take them out and dance in the rain, we will play pretend, we will sing to Jesus, and I can not wait to be a mother to help her children be the world changers they are. I can not wait to have my own husband to support his ministry in any way possible. I can not wait to do laundry, cook, and clean for my own family. I know this is totally random but it is what is on my mind right now. I write what is on my heart. I guess this is on my mind because of the fact that Thanksgiving is coming up and I have been thanking the Lord for the things he has given me and the things he will give me. Also seeing Katie all pregnant just makes me so excited to have my own. Well I hope this doesn’t scare anyone. haha I say this mostly for my male readers. I am picky and yes I want to have a family and if it makes me weird as most think I am well sorry. Well I am going to have to get off here. I would just keep on talking crazy lol. Okay Much love!

God Bless, Christy

Title goes here! lol November 23, 2008

Okay so I am having some mixed emotions right now. One I am happy I have made some awesome new friend. Sarah, Tony, Michael, and even more than I can’t name. However I am really sad that I don’t get to go home and see my friends who might as well be family instead I am here alone. haha Okay don’t get sad cause another happy moment is I get to see them soon. Back to sad moment though is I have heard from some of my middle school girls and I am so happy for that but some of their stories tear me up. One of the girls feels she is worthless and no longer likes being called the names she has been called. She also didn’t seem to understand why fooling around with guys was wrong. I am so angered by our society making these awesome girls feel like nobodies. Which is odd cause they are Princess’ of the most high God. My father the king has won the war I have read the stories. My prince and fiance died for me and came back for me. My father gives me the bestf o the best. Why are these treasured young beauties being treated like trash. This kills me and makes me so mad. Who’s fault is it? The church is the problem. We as the church should be uplifting eachother and not tearing eachother down. We need to make every girl no matter what feel like  the princess she is. I pray for my christian sisters they all struggle ith the same things. Please be in prayer for this especially this young girl. It tears me up knowing this and feeling like I can do nothing to help. Okay so on a lighter note, I have a week off. Then I have 3 days of classes, and then 3 exams. Plus coffee house, christmas convo, and a caberae. I can’t wait. Then I get to go to Statesville and then to Rock Hill or Rock Thrill lol not but still. I can not wait then I get to go and help Kelly and learn about my profession. Well I better go. I hope I hear from you all my phone is on and I am online all the time. I would love to be entertained. Well Much Love and Keep on Keepin on!

God Bless, Christy

A glimpse of Heaven! November 16, 2008

Okay so I watched the lord fo the rings tonight/today. I was overcome with emotion when at the end of the third one Frodo is in his bed and the people keep coming in and rejoicing. Saying things like good job. They were all happy. I wonder if heaven will be like that. All of the people we know coming in excited to see us and celebrating with us. Another thing that struck me was Gandolf the father figure of Frodo sitting at the bed. And he was the first one he saw when he woke up. I can see our father sitting there waiting for us and when we see him he smiles and laughs happily. God is alive! Pray for strength and that you would continue to strengthen my relationship with him.

God Bless, Christy

Didn’t do anything! November 16, 2008

Okay so last night I returned to the school picked up Lawrence and then picked up the girls. We went to the mall and Kohls. Then to the clubhouse for a time of fellowship. I then had to go to pick up my friends and I was late. I was in a hurry and got all turned around. I turned around and almost hit a car that I did not see through all of the fog. The car was filled with men of African American decent. They were very angry and were threatening me about to get out of their car and come after me. I was terrified. I went the way I though I was to go and ended up on the interstate. I was so shaken up I was crying I finally found my way back to Liberty and had to have my mom coach me on how to get her. The evening was rough if you couldn’t tell and well I didn’t exactly go to bed early either. I had to wake up early to get my mom to work on time and it was tough. I made my sister come with me so I wouldn’t fall asleep on the road which really almost happend. I then came home slept for a few hours and then retuned to work I had to take a Psych. test and clean my room. Laundry well I never got to it. I never accomplished anything really. So tomorrow will be one of those days of tons of work.

Who can make us happy? November 14, 2008

Okay so today I went to class with my wonderful CFAW Hannah. I was so blessed for her to come and spend the day with me. I came home while she went to nap and decided just to spend some alone time. It felt sooo good. Then my family came home and I had this extremely weird urge to listen to music from Lord of the rings. SO I did. Complete dorky moment I know but I just had to. I should be leaving soon to meet back up with Hannah. Okay so topic of the day is Psalm 4:6 “Many are asking,’Who can show us any good?’ Let the light of you face shine upon us, O Lord.” Okay so this hit home to me. People are asking who can show us any good. People are looking for ways to make themselves happy. God is the only way. I pray for all of yall that the light of the Lord’s face will shine down upon you. I know this was short but I really don’t have too much to say. Much love and always in his service.

God bless, Christy

Trust is kinda a Big deal! November 14, 2008

Wow so I am so proud of myself as you should be for being able to write to yall everyday. I am so happy to receive your emails on how people actually read this. I am sooo happy right now because I am listening to Christmas it just hit me it is close. I realized today that including the days I have to take the exams I have 3 classes of Theatre History 7 classes of Basic Acting 3 class of Psych 210 2 classes of Evangelism and then off to Rock Hill. I can not wait to see everyone and I hope I can do many things with yall before I return. Well after my fun times I am going to go to Myrtle Beach with Kelly and will be doing my practicum. I am so excited. We will have a total theatre people filled night. Oh today we had the other of our text book come to Evan his name is Alvin Reid he spoke on relationships on how we don’t make relationships with people like we should. Since the class is an all girls class he also had a talk about the guys we should be looking for and he did a very good job of speaking. I was highly impressed. Tomorrow I have Basic Acting and then lunch with my class and then shopping hopefully. I have not finished finding clothing for my practicum. I hope everything goes smooth when I am down there. I am so blessed that I get to do it with Kelly and the fact that I have a ride there. Thank you Daniel! Well and Stevie and anyone else who is going to be helping me get on the highway of success lol ya that was bad sorry I won’t try anymore. Okay well I am not sure if I will be going shopping ro not tomorrow. Things aren’t looking to promising. However I did order online a new pair of jeans, a hoodie, and a new coat. Yay! I can not wait until it arrives. Okay so my wisdom of the day for today is on trust. I know I have not written one of these in a while so here you go. My verse of topic is Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart lean not on your own understanding. Also  Psalm 37:5 says Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in him, and he shall bring it to pass. Okay so what has been on my mind is my future as many people wonder what am I going to be doing 5 years from now will I be married and to who when will this come to pass. The questions can at times overwhelm ya. Something that keeps coming to mind is you are not to go out and make it happen the way you feel it should. You must trust the Lord to make it happen on his timing and in his way. This does not mean that we should sit on our rear and do nothing we need to do the steps but through understanding that he will direct those paths we travel on. The verse in Proverbs says not to trust on your own understanding but to me I think this can go as far as to say what the world tells us to. I know with females we are being told we can do everything a man can do so we should be the hunters. We are to go out and find a guy and make the first move. Incorrect! God wants us to have so much trust and faith in him that we will send someone our way. This can go hand in hand with the verse from Psalm We can tell him what we want and leave it with him. He will make it happen. This does not mean that we are to ask for…. well sticking with dating this one guy God will listen to what we ask for but he mays say listen I have something better. God wants the best for his children. Royalty deserves the best. The thing is though we need to trust. That is what I have been trying to do for a while but it is so hard. Pray with me and join with me to trust the Lord. Well have a truly blessed weekend. God Bless, Christy

Love song with a new meaning! November 12, 2008

Okay so total girly confession. I was of course of of those girls that saw the movie PS I love you. When I saw it I ran out and ordered the soundtrack on itunes. I fell in love with the song by the Pogues called love you till the end. I was driving down the road when the song came on. I was listening to the lyrics and felt the spirit tell me that this is his song to me. The lyrics say this I just want to see you when your all alone. This really spoke to me saying how God loves it when we are alone with him. Then it says I just want to catch you if you can God spoke and said see I love you and don’t want to see you fail or fall i am there and can carry you if I need to. Then the lyrics say All I can say is I love you till the end. God loves us till the end and since we have made a covenant with him the end will never come. Then for some reason this made me think of a fairy tale. Every fairy tale ends with And they lived happily ever after. I think this is exactly how our life is in the end we will live happily care free for ever but until then we might have to defeat some dragons on the way or stop an evil man. However we will have an ending worth writing about.

A moment for me lol! November 11, 2008

Okay so college life is great! My classes are coming to an end and it is actually quite sad. I have already signed up for classes! I can’t wait till next semester I feel very confident that it will hold some amazing treasures. I have made some more friends. Lawerance, Donny, Thomas, Daniel, David, Chris, Megan, Mariam, Amanda, Sarah…and more! I  love making new friends especially when they are close to God. Oh I almost forgot I have a mentor who is truly wonderful and a blessing to have in my life. Her name is Hannah and I just know God is going to do great things in our lives. Oh mom got a job and well it isn’t everything she has hoped for if you catch my drift. However it is a job and we need the money. I have been buying some new clothes and I must say it has boost my confidence up! It is amazing how something simple like that can make a difference. Okay so here is where I want to get spiritual. I have been reading Jackie Kendall who I saw live lol her books. I have loved it. She writes about how girls need to look for a Boaz instead of a Bozo. I feel like I have been preaching this for years lol well actually I have. Marriage was the topic in Psychology tonight. It really got me thinking and actually depressed about how so many people have the wrong idea. I know so many Christian young people who have given themselves away. Not only that but people are living together more and more. And the fact that people judge on the outward appearance so much. This shouldn’t matter. It angered me that so many men feel a woman should live up to certain critiria of looks. I think this is where our christian sisters feel the need for surgical procedures and immodest clothing. ANd then this is the act that makes our christian brothers stumble. I think that we should be so immersed in God that we know for sure who we are to be with and never have been in a relationship with them. I don’t know maybe I am the only one thinking this way. I know I haven’t met any men having this same idea but I know that God will bless me. I would love for more to join with me and make a difference. I’m sorry I am just really perplexed by the attitudes of my counrty. Oh well I gotta run well more like sleep! Let me know what you all think!

God Bless, Christ

In His service now and forever!

College! October 15, 2008

I must say it has been a while but I have had a lot happen. We tried to move and then didn’t and now we have and things have started to settle. However this week is insane for me because of midterms. I have a pretty busy schedule every week. Mondays I have basic acting and GNED in which later I have Psychology which is a 3 hour class. Tuesdays I have Theatre History and Evangelism and later that night I have self defense with my friend Ashley. We actually just got done and tonight we were able to learn some really koowl things. I already feel safer. It is really sad when you kind of want someone to try and attack you just cause you know you can take them down. Wed. I have basic acting and GNED and later that night I have campus church. Thursdays I have Education and Theatre History and Evangelism. Then I have something that night. This week it is scare mare and next week it is a teacher meeting. Friday I have Basic acting and GNED and usually do something with friends along with studying writing papers and doing projects. My weekends finish it all up. I have a huge prayer request fo my own which is I have had some problems when my period comes I really have pain in which I throw up and can’t move among others things. I figured it was normal and possibly could be fixed with birth control pills. My symptoms have been getting worse so I felt that I could look up and see what I could do to make it better. I found out I might have Endomitriosis. This is a disease with all of my symptoms. It can be cured in small cases by medication but most of the time with surgery. This is not what scared me. If I have to have surgery I might not be able to have children either at all or will continue to have miscarriages for the rest of my life. For those who know me well know I have such a heart for children and love them and want to have many of my own. Finding out that this might be taken away from me is so hard. I was reading in the scripture and found Genesis 30:1 where it says that Rachel cried out and said “Give me children or else I will die.” I know how she feels to have that taken away is such a horrible thing to think of. Plus it is satan using this as a distraction. He is telling me lies of how this will cause me to never get married. I have turned to my bible study and I am growing closer with him. I really need to get some rest. i want you to keep me and my family in your prayers. Thanks you so much! God Bless,Christy

Summer evaluation! August 6, 2008

So I have had some amazing things happen this summer and some not so wonderful times. I was bale to work with some of the most amazing people ever. Amber has truly been such a blessing to me. Her family became my summer family for sure. I have had some pretty interesting projects to do like take kids to Dollywood and direct a few plays. I have had some pretty boring things like make copies and write birthday cards. But none of it I would take back or change for the world. I have learned so much. Ye I may not be ready for the professional world but I am ready for God’s world. I hope to continue leading Secret Keepers but in Lynchburg. God has put Middle school girls on my heart. I can not be out of God’s will. As Amber says “the safest place to be is in the center of God’s will”. I love that it is so true. I would have to say that this summer has been a time of loneliness. I was not completely alone but was in the area of having people my age. I have had a wonderful time with The Bacon’s. I was truly blessed to have them in my life and there they shall stay. However I was a little angry at God for not giving me friends to hang with. It took a wise lady Miss Stevie to really show me that maybe God wanted me to be alone. Yes I have learned so much about myself and of course seemed to always focus on my flaws. However there is alot of positives about me. I will have to remind myself of this daily. I can’t wait to head off to Liberty although I will be away from my bestest friend in the whole world. I hope to make friends though isn’t what college is for to learn more about people.  A time to truly grow up. Well I hope that I will be able to minister to others and learn more about my future career. Well I must be going.